That is the affirmation I will be saying to myself in the mirror as I take my body through this 30 day journey of an intense detox and cleanse. First, a little background. I am 44 years young. Lead a pretty healthy lifestyle. I do yoga a few times a week, eat only organic when at home and try to make smart choices when out and about. I drink alcohol two sometimes three times per week, usually wine or rum. I am not married and do not have children. My cleaning supplies and personal products are either organic or naturally derived. The most toxic thing I have in my space would be my electronics and/or fabric/clothing. Oh, and I live on the open water with the salt water permeating the air. So, why tell you all of this? Well, about 9 years ago I began having the most excruciating pain in my left jaw. It started as a tingle and then within a few days, it rendered me speechless. At the time, I was going through a great deal of stress. My boyfriend was unemployed and I was having to pick up the slack for both households, my kitty, that was only two years old, had passed away suddenly, my home was in foreclosure and my job as a wardrobe stylist for production was always stressful. Back then, I still believed in the route of Western Medicine. I began with the dentist since it was in my jaw, certainly this was the cause. It wasn’t so he referred me to an oral surgeon who took X-rays and found no masses. He then referred me to a neurologist because he thought I was symptomatic of an MS patient. I wasn’t, instead the neurologist diagnosed me with Trigeminal Neuralgia. He did a physical exam that consisted of what you might do during an infield sobriety test, wrote me a prescription for the drug Lyrica and sent me out the door with a follow up appointment scheduled for 60 days out. When I questioned how I got this disease or even what it entailed, he had no answers…just that I would have it for the remainder of my life (I was 35) and there is no known cause. Bewildered, I left the office. Back at home, I began to research this drug Lyrica…the side effects were and still are horrendous! The weight gain was what first caught my attention. I had just ordered a size 0 bridesmaids dress for my friend’s wedding! 20lbs of weight gain would not make myself or the bride to be very happy. I began to look for alternatives. I noticed that the drugs being subscribed for this condition were anti-seizure drug. Hmmm…not sure of that. I chose to utilize the drug Tegretol and phoned my doctor to have the prescription changed. They were not very happy but reluctantly agreed so I began to take the drug. It was less than two days that I began to lose my quality of life. My vision was triple, driving was no longer an option which meant work was non existent as well. If I was standing and closed my eyes, I would immediately fall over so showering by myself was no longer an option as well. I moved in with my boyfriend and at 35 years old, I was being bathed by him on one of those shower stools. The drug began to desensitize me to everything. His Dad, who had taken a spill off the roof and was on some serious pain meds, and I sat next to one another on the couch….slumped to the side almost drooling. It was a sad sight I am sure of it. After just 10 days on the drug, I said no more! I began to research more natural ways. Found forums created for those suffering from Trigeminal Neuralgia and eventually connected with a doctor that directed me to an Upper Chiropractic Specialist. This man was an angel. After just one visit, I was 100% all meds free and 85% pain free. I continued to make weekly visits for the next year to a year and a half and finally became 98% pain free. I was elated! This was just the beginning of my journey to natural health. I began reading about toxicity and how inflammation was the root cause of all diseases. My digestive system has not always been the best so all of those toxins that don’t get secreted are just building up on my colon wall! Yuck! Think about your car and when you get lazy and fail to change the oil…how thick and gunky it is when you finally do. So, I found a colon hydrotherapist and began to have regular colonics. At first I felt great! Then, I would have my morning session and come home to make a healthy smoothie with protein powder, milk, banana and peanut butter. Within 10 minutes, I was comatose. I could not keep my eyes open! I decided to share my latest dilemma with my colon hydrotherapist and since you’re always in an al fresco kinda situation there is nothing better to do than to chit chat while you’re having your pipes irrigated. She told me about a doctor, that was close by, that she felt could help me with my health issues. I immediately made an appointment and during the first few minutes of our first visit, he told me that I had a dairy allergy. I replied with yes, I have always been lactose intolerant but I take these lactaid pills…he smiled and said no…you have an a.l.l.e.r.g.y. which means that the dairy is creating inflammation inside of your body! Well, needless to say, I stopped dairy cold turkey…and guess what…my trigeminal neuralgia pain went away…poof…it’s gone! Talk about dancing in the street! Now, could it have been a combination of the colonics, the diet elimination and the chiropractic adjustment…sure…one will never know. So, fast forward to May of last year (2017). Again, my stress levels were high but nothing nearly to the point of what they were in 2009. Thinking back, I had a few minor pain flareups but nothing like this past May. Again, rendered speechless. It eventually calmed back down with just a few minor twinges here and there. I began the diet elimination, spoke to my chiropractor, he adjusted me but nothing worked this time around. It was around Christmas that I became mute and had to write things out on paper instead of speaking and chewing was even a bigger challenge. By New Years, I was fit to be tied. I began researching homeopathic remedies and happened onto a site called Biogetica. I read through testimonials, watched videos and with a money back guarantee , I figured what the hay and ordered the five bottle regimen. After just two days, my pain was “silenced”…I use this term because instead of being non existent, which it was before, I felt the deadening of the nerve. I didn’t care. I could talk and chew again! After about 10 blissful pain free days, I became severely depressed and had suicidal thoughts. I immediately made an emergency appointment with my chiropractor and he confirmed that one of the five bottles was overstimulating my body…story of my life. I can’t ever go by the recommended dosage on the bottle for anything! So, I immediately stopped everything! I didn’t take a probiotic, an herb or a supplement for three days. Wanted to give my system a rest. Then, here comes the pain again. I decided to start back with the bottle, that was causing the overstimulation, in small doses and monitoring my moods closely. During this process, I remembered that my neurologist that issued the original diagnosis of Trigeminal Neuralgia, never ordered an MRI to rule out anything brain related, i.e. lesions and tumors. So, I had my chiropractor order one so I could have peace of mind that I did not have something growing inside of my brain for over decade. After having not one but two MRIs, one with contrast and one without, both scans came back clean! Yes, that’s right, clean. According to the radiologist, I have no visual neuroma of the trigeminal nerve and all nerves seem to be the normal size. What??!! So, I have never had trigeminal neuralgia??!! I was put on some kind of drug that has horrific side effects for a condition that I didn’t even have! It got me to wondering. How many people out there are like me? How many people go to a neurologist with my same symptoms and receive a diagnosis and drug prescription and then are walked to the elevator?? How many people take their doctor’s word for batum because they are the experts? And sadly, how many of them have an underlying condition that mimics the symptoms of trigeminal neuralgia and end up taking their own life because their course of treatment does not work and/or sends them into a severe depressive state. I would like to know the statistics of how many people who had this diagnosis and were on some sort of drug therapy that took their own life. My goal is to change that statistic, drastically! So, that brings me to today..Sunday February 19, 2018. After a chance run in with my new neighbor, I have discovered, ordered and will be participating in starting tomorrow, Dr. Schulze’s modified 30 Day Detox Cleanse. It is a rather intense program, consisting of organic juicing and/or organic raw food consumption for all meals. in addition, there are special supplements, tinctures and teas to aid in the cleansing of the bowel, liver and kidneys. Not to be mistaken by his infamous “Incurables” program…that’s really intense! Although, after encouragement by my new neighbor, I have decided to adopt the dry skin brushing and the hot/cold shower into my daily routine to give my facial nerve pain the biggest blow out punch I can possibly muster! I will continue to post daily updates here and I also have a You Tube channel set up that will demonstrate the daily activities of the program and my progress within it. I hope you will join me on my journey! My goal is to help at least one silent sufferer of this horrendous disease. That being said, please share my story so that one person can be reached! Here’s to my GIANT step to healing my body!